It was a very sad day, well, actually a sad week, for our family as we had all grown very attached to him.
It was the first time I had been a foster mom, and honestly, I don't know if I could do it again.
For 4 months I rocked him to sleep, sang to him, tended to him as if he were my own, loved him as if he were my own, and tried to protect my heart...but before long he had crept in and now I know he will always have a special little place.
Our family still miss him lots, I miss his warm little body in my bed next to me (where he used to sleep), I finish doing dishes and think to myself I need to get Doodlebug's bottles ready for the night...only to remember he is no longer here...he was such a tiny little boy, but he has left such a big void....
~* For Doodlebug *~
I knew from the start this day would come,
And I thought I’d be prepared to send you on
I never knew it would be so hard,
You see, you have crept into our hearts.
Your beautiful smile, your precious grin,
The void you are leaving you can’t even imagine
I would do it all again, you bet I would,
For the memories you have left us are so very good!
Now my precious Doodlebug,
We need to send you on,
But please remember we love you,
And forever stay strong!
~* Starr *~
08/08/08
~* Follow Your Path *~
As I sit here holding you,
Tears streaming down my face
You are smiling and gurgling,
Oblivious to the changing pace
Your are a delight and a joy,
And you are one special boy
Filled with love and laughter,
Your memory will linger long after
Your journey with us has come to an end,
But your life is just beginning my little friend
You have a new path, Follow it well
Maybe one day our paths will cross, who can tell?
~* Starr *~
08/08/08
I knew from the start this day would come,
And I thought I’d be prepared to send you on
I never knew it would be so hard,
You see, you have crept into our hearts.
Your beautiful smile, your precious grin,
The void you are leaving you can’t even imagine
I would do it all again, you bet I would,
For the memories you have left us are so very good!
Now my precious Doodlebug,
We need to send you on,
But please remember we love you,
And forever stay strong!
~* Starr *~
08/08/08
~* Follow Your Path *~
As I sit here holding you,
Tears streaming down my face
You are smiling and gurgling,
Oblivious to the changing pace
Your are a delight and a joy,
And you are one special boy
Filled with love and laughter,
Your memory will linger long after
Your journey with us has come to an end,
But your life is just beginning my little friend
You have a new path, Follow it well
Maybe one day our paths will cross, who can tell?
~* Starr *~
08/08/08
2 comments:
~Tears~ You are an AWESOME MOM & FOSTER MOM! You have some serious strength... big hugs and squishies when no words can mend what you feel right now. I hope you can feel comfort in the love you gave that has prepared him to grow & give love & be loved in his family but will stay in your heart forever. Sara/Sofa
Starr,
As someone from Dayla's side of the tracks.. I say thank you! Your love shall never be forgotten and your sacrifice shall surely be something that God remembers and gives endless comfort! I so wish that you have peace and happiness in the days to come. The song you chose is perfect! You and Trena and Sunnie will never know just how much your love and time mean to those of us that need time to get to our children. Your love for him is evident sweetie!!!
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